－－英文为什么会有这么多词呢，痛苦啊。

 

在这个孤独的圣诞夜，窗外已经没有灯火。只有我点着一盏小灯，抱着一团被子，对着奇怪的字母组合发呆。现在的努力，还不是为了上一个好的grad school，可读grad school又为什么，还不是为了毕业找份理想的工作。什么是理想的工作，又有多少工作可以让你enjoy呢？ 随后还不是在平凡的工作上消磨青春年华。在这里quote朋友的一句话，"I wonder if I'm achieving my full potential". 未来在哪里，我究竟该如何走呢？

Recently a classmate accidentally died of bipolar and committing suicide. I can't believe this when I first heard about it. Came back from his funeral this morning feeling sad.  His dad read a letter at the funeral in the trembling and crying voice that I will never forget.  Can't imagine what I would do I were in his shoes; the only son died at the age of 21.  Especially he was so smart and genius.  Looked at his body, I can't believe he's gone.  I kind of talked with my dad about it and he said we have to learn how to look at ourselves and how to look at the world.  You can't see youself too high or too low.  It made me think that sometimes in life you might have to compromise; if you don't bend, you break.  Just wish that he is rested in a better place and hope his parents fine.